Wednesday, July 3, 2013

quitters never win, but winners sometimes quit

c/o Natalie Dee
 Ever since high school, I have had this elaborate fantasy that one day I would quit a job [Tangent: If you know me at all, you know I am not a quitter and I sometimes stick with things WAY too long even to the point where people are like "Kimmie, seriously why are you still doing this?"] and I would do it in the style of my favorite movie from 1996- That Thing You Do.

Only when reality struck me,  I didn't do it through song....I did it through anxiety and a tear or two and about 2000 semi-Catholic utterances of "I'm Sorry." I had never quit a job before, and for the record, I am TERRIBLE at it.

For the last week and a half, I have been working a temp job that had the potential to lead to something full time. It was a good job, it was just not the job for me. It was straight up business marketing, and although I was an advertising major- I definitely have always seen myself as more of a copywriter and creative. My mind doesn't operate in the capacity needed for the position I had nor do I want it to and I was leaving everyday feeling insanely stressed and inadequate.  I have A LOT of stress in my life that is beyond my control, and I am trying to wrangle the things I can. [Tangent: Not to site another movie from my youth, but remember in Don't Tell Mom the Babysitter's Dead when Sue Ellen pretends to be an adult and goes to work at the apparel company, and immediately she has no idea what they are talking about. That was me. I felt like I was saying, "I'm right on top of that Rose!" at every juncture.]


Being unemployed for several months has definitely given me some perspective and helped me figure out what I want out of life. [Tangent: I understand and respect that many will not understand my decision and say, "What the crap, Kimmie? Beggars can't be choosey!" but for the last 10 years, I have worked in jobs that were not my strength and where I didn't feel like I was doing something that fulfilled me and made me feel good about myself. I'm no spring chicken- I'm 30. It's high time I find something where I can shine.]  I've decided from now on - I need to start obeying the mantra of duckfaced tweens everywhere- YOLO! [Tangent: This is the first and last time I will ever say, "YOLO." Take it in folks. ]

I guess the universe caught wind of my decision to quit before I even told anyone I had made it, because I arrived home yesterday to an email and a facebook message telling me about jobs that suited me and a reminder from my Blogger account reminding me that it was my blogversary.


Independence day 2013 will celebrate 3 years that you all have been listening to me ramble, so I guess I am capable of sticking with some things. Although this choice to quit seems like sad news, don't cry for me, Argentina. Although,  I'm scared a bit of returning to monetary woes- I'm also completely stoked to see what the future holds!

16 comments:

  1. But you'll be fine for a little while, Kimmie Jones, for we all know you stole petty cash from the little box in even truer Don't Tell Mom fashion.... You're a brave lady and apparently a decisive one. That's a good mix. I'm glad for you :)

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    1. Haha. no petty cash was entrusted to me...or else you know I would have put on one hell of a fashion show...complete with hot pink nurse's uniform!

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  2. Good luck, Kimmie! We spend a lot of time at work--it's so much better if you're not miserable. I mean, that's a bear minimum, right?

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    1. It was a good gig for someone who wanted that kind of job. As my old roommate used to say, "it was not the vision"

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  3. Sometimes quitting is the right thing to do. This isn't so bad, really: You figured out that one job isn't the job for you--and that puts you one step closer to finding the right one. It's out there!

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    1. Absolutely. Better than leading them on too

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  4. Good job, Kimmie and congrats on the 3rd year! I hope you find something that you love very soon :)

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  5. I guess you're free for lunch now ;-P

    Let me add my own cheese to your cliche pizza: "Do what you love and the money will follow". I'm sorry it didn't work out for you, and Lord knows not many people are scrambling to hire cripples, but you did the right thing.

    Congrats on the bloggerversary! Lunch is on me.

    Alicia

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    1. YES! I am free for lunch now! Pizza actually sounds delicious.

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  6. I'm still telling myself "If not now, when?" and I'm 63 years old. If you can take time to find something you love, by all means do it. One of my problems has always been that I do a lot of things well, but no one wants to pay me for doing them. Turns out a lot of other people know how to do those things better than I do! Who knew? Since my husband and I were in the same boat, we decided to open our own restaurant, since neither of us knew anything about running one. 18 years later, we're still there, not making a lot of money, but we still are our own bosses. There's something in that.
    Life is too short, and if you can keep the lights on, then you're more successful than many! Go for it.
    And Happy Blogaversary!

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    1. Thanks! I agree! I have had "filler" jobs for years and they were not the dream. I am looking for something that is.

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  7. I hate to hear that the job didn't turn out to be what you thought. It is good to get out early instead of regretting it three years from now. I have learned over the past two years that money is not more important than my health (stress is bad...). We should make Goodwill trips together :)

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  8. remember— tough times don't last: tough people do! i'm sorry if that's cliche though. it really is a bummer when things like that don't turn out how we want. . . mostly because feelings of inadequacy are the worst BUT i also feel it takes a strong person to recognize when something isn't working for them and change it (or discover new things that we are better suited for!).

    i've realized that a lot of the time, instead of knowing what i want and going after it, i tend to realize what i DON'T WANT and go after what's left. it's been working pretty great so far. and if it makes you feel better— we all totally got monetary woes (it's just that no one really talks about it!) like thrifting/diy is great and all and has become super trendy but i couldn't survive without things like that with this negative price tag from college debt hanging over my head.

    okay, sorry i went on a tangent there but basically i think you are great and just wanted to let you know you aren't alone!

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    1. I made it work for 6 months working "gypsy" jobs. I made shit money but I was happy.

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