Because I felt bad about my recently confessed-to window of hermit behavior, I braved the flurries and went out shopping. [Tangent: We will gloss over the fact that despite my promises in the prior post, I wore slipper boots as actual shoes. Old habits die hard. I did change into actual shoes (read: not available in the sleepwear department) before I went out to dinner with friends. I have some boundaries...not many, but some.] While out I bought these really super cute sweater leggings because they seemed stretchy and not incredibly binding, but after getting them home I found even they didn't fit me. Let's face it after crossing the 30 year threshold, you have 0 metabolism and have to eat healthy or else you actually gain weight. [Tangent: I know this seems like a, "No shit, Sherlock" kind of situation, but I have always had the metabolism of a hummingbird and thus permanently a size small. In past years, I have even been put on a doctor perscribed weight gaining regimen (which heavily consisted of subscribing to the "more mayonaise please" mentaility), so this whole "Kimmie can actually gain weight thing" is all new to me. As my sister said, "You are finally becoming a woman!" (instead of a sickly 12 year old boy, which has pretty much been my body type up to present.)]
|This was me at 16. my arms are as big around as dowel rods.|
All of this kind of has been a downer, not because I am getting some much needed additional ass fat, but more because none of my pants fit anymore...and I like my pants. [Tangent:I know I have no right to complain and this if this had a hashtag, it would definitely be #skinnygirlproblems, because I know it sounds ridiculous. I can practically hear the mass x'ing out of this post as you read my insecurity even though I am still under 100 pounds.] It also has made me feel suddenly fashion challenge, which is pretty much how I felt through a lot of my youth. From about 3rd-8th grade, my wardrobe was brought to you by the "pretty plus" department at Sears.
|yep. also me. I probably wear a smaller size now than I did then. What other adult can say that?|